01 Eylül 2009, Salı
saat: 02:12
palpitations. not the good kind.
some external and internal reasons i am guessing.
so i got the news i have been hoping for. which only made me scared. i am hesitating. although i know i need it, i don't have a way of knowing it would/could be the best option.
don't see the point in telling anyone really.
i tend to act according to the way people expect, the way people want. to make them happy.
it's hard for me to know what i want. i am too busy analyzing every little option, and nothing tends to be black and white.
consequences.
i believe in que sera, sera.
if you are to lose that money, you'll lose it be it gambling, robbery, forgotten bills etc. so you better spend it wisely.
i woke up scared that i would be stuck here, away from everyone i actually care about.
i am not good with delayed gratification. hell, i don't even care that much about the gratification bit.
in a rather ironic twist, i have been falling asleep easier for a while now.
