16 Ekim 2009, Cuma
saat: 01:28
now as the first snow falls, i am sitting inside (i.e. library), wrapped in fourteen layers and drinking steaming hot chamomile tea.. wow! i wasn't expecting winter to come that early!
sure, i'm glad that the semester is half over. sure, i'm happy that the holidays are fast approaching. but with all the awesome things that this time of the year brings along, there's something that i just can't stand, something that always comes around : "oh, what a busy month it's been!"..
seriously, i've been killing myself with meetings, classes, and assignments.. there are so many things going on.. omg, i wrote soo many papers last week! for the first time this year, i pulled all nighter and it was awful! next morning i couldn't even remember my locker combination at the gym! i mean, okay, i love to write papers (i don't know why, but there's nothing like constructing a bad-ass argument and refuting the crap out of the opposition) but i should never, ever, try to write 10 page papers in a single night. staying up all night is simply not my thing!
and of course my readings..uff! all the assignments I read were 'short pieces' (i.e. a rather long piece masquerading as a short one) for my history seminar. For my cinema readings, I annotate the sh*t out of them, but when I am through I generally have absolutely no idea what I had read.
On top of all that, today i had my first midterm! i've spent the past 4 days in the library flipping through my notebook. i've highlighted and re-highlighted all the most important sections in the textbook for my race& racism exam. and the exam was totally incredible : about halfway through my answer i realized i'd forgotten one very important section! I debated crossing everything out and starting over but there was no time, so I left a little footnote for Sandra (my TA) and hoped she would find this little paragraph in the back before she slaps a big red grade on the front. not that she would be able to read it; because by that time i was so bored with writing the exam that my writing had gone from perfectly legible to schubert's own handwriting! when there were only 20 minutes left, i still had a ways to go. i filled one entire blue book and a few pages of another. With what? I have no idea!! i was so tired and sick of writing that I forwent reviewing my answer. surely after the exam, my hand hurt, my neck hurt, my brain hurt.. but now all I can do is wait for the grade..
yet now instead of laying low and relishing in the sweetness of chocolate-y desserts, i am spending every moment in the library surrounded by books, highlighters, a laptop and hundreds of other stressed out students.
i must be crazy, i know!!
