14 Kasım 2009, Cumartesi
saat: 11:13
Iyilik ile obur yanagini donmek arasinda fark var sana yumruk atana.
Kendimi ozellikle kotu biri olarak gormesem de kana kan, dise dis inancinin siki bir takipcisi olarak kotulugun cezasiz kalmamasi inancindayim.
Yok efendim, neymis?
-I don't feel comfortable anymore.
-...
-You don't even look at me in the face.
-Right. That's because I don't want to.
-...
-You act like I don't exist.
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Acikcasi insanlari ne kadar kolaylikla silebildigimi farkettigim anlar oluyor ve korkuyorum ciddi anlamda. Dengesiz dedikleri kadar var.
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Eye for an eye doesn't leave the whole world blind. It just teaches that if you poke someone's eye out, you will lose an eye. So that you don't poke someone's eye to start with.
But really, mine is a selfish act. I want to make sure that people do understand the pain they inflict on others.
And probably more. Because they were the first.
Revenge is pretty fun.
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Intentions do matter. I do take them into consideration. But if the effect is remarkable enough, I'll throw them out. You can't just do as you wish, intending nothing but the good stuff to happen but someone gets fucked in the ass, then I care jack shit about your intentions.
So maybe next time take a fucking good look at what you are doing to other people. Take a good look at what you are demanding of others, what kind of tolls you are imposing on them.
Yeah, so cry me a river.
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It's a simple rule really. If you don't want people to know about something, don't tell anyone.
Over and over again, I just realize that people suck at keeping secrets. I truly believe that I'm better than most people than I know, if not everyone. Yeah, I do think that, given what people have told me and me not telling those to anyone even when they put me at disadvantage. I just cannot.
OK, some hubris. Maybe I just pick the wrong people to tell stuff or maybe just that I tell things to wrong people.
But the cure is really easy. Just keep your mouth shut. It's like magic.
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Marshall'in kiz arkadasinin is planlarindan konusmak ilginc bir his.
4 sene. Hatta neredeyse 5.
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Bir noktada eger benim icin onume konulmus bu yolun disina cikmam gerekiyor sanki.
Yeah dude, what happened to the element of surprise?
Daha dogrusu sanki hayatimda artik bir karar verme noktasina dogru geliyorum. Onumde cizilmis yolun disina cikmaz isem bir daha cikmanin zor olacagini goruyor gibiyim.
Bakalim.
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Hayatimda birilerinin olmasi lazim sanki su noktada ugruna bir seyler yapacagim.
saat: 11:24
Bu arada Baker Beach'te cekilmis resimlere denk geldim Flickr'da alakasiz birinin profilinde. Kuzey kisimlara gidememis arkadas anlasilan. Ben gittim.
I guess there lies a nudist in me. Deep down inside.
Hakikaten.
Ciplak kelimesi nedense fazla guclu nude kelimesinin yaninda. "Yanlis" neredeyse.
It's just something else to be nude on a beach. Pretty addictive.
I'd not call it addictive actually. It's so much more normal that after that one time, it's hard to do it any other way.
