14 Kasım 2009, Cumartesi
saat: 22:34
the cat thing turned out to be a bust.
taking things too seriously dawned on me as my problem.
i had to do so for some time, it actually saved me during those three days for example, but no more need for it.
there is a fine line between taking it lightly and not giving a crap, i'll tread on that line now. so the plan's off, and thank goodness for being able to think clearer.
and the sorrow? the sorrow will always be mine, and mine only. i'll wrap it up, and sleep with it, carry it around like a token during the day or keep it in my wallet as a souvenir.
that i claim the sole responsibility for.
neuroscience as career. that scared me a bit.
also, yes, i am bad at fluff. not useless fluff but the kind where you make the experience shine. i can list them, and the video of the past few years of my life will definitely sell, but i need to work on my fluffing skills in writing.
i could have gotten out of it with some evasiveness and jokes of course, now i know. i'll always have the excuses at least.
the three am inspiration hour is back.
if only there was no tomorrow...
