02 Nisan 2010, Cuma
saat: 03:27
i would have thought that i was younger but no, it must have been in high school, first year in high school. after i had read that note once and understood it perfectly well, i just did as i was told, as a front, and edited it. with a red pen to boot. i bypassed the big words staring at me at the bottom. i ignored the stick figures completely.
it wasn't that i was being mean on purpose, i had quite a low opinion of myself back then and was terribly naive too.
i just went back to the dorms to giggle about it with my friends.
wow, that sounds mean. but rational, definitely rational. definitely you.
i think i have become a bit mean, judgmental and cynical but still am very, very rational if that justifies anything.
whiskey smells bad in a good way. i am getting there.
just want to curl up and take a sweet little nap there, all peaceful and shit, you know?
not quite no. how do you know it's going to be peaceful? how do you know that the ship has not sailed, like millions of years ago? is this a part of the losing hope and becoming cynical thing, or is it a rather late but good realization?
so out of shape when it comes to going out and socializing that six hours of sitting at the same place totally wiped me out.
