01 Temmuz 2010, Perşembe
saat: 10:04
Ucuz ilericilik adina Allah yerine tanri kelimesini kullanan insanlar beni geriyor. Allah da nitekim Tanri demek degil mi zaten Arapcada? Tabi denebilir ki artik kullanimi geregi Allah Islam'daki tanri yerini almis ama Islam'a gore onun bunun tanrisi olamayacagina gore..falan..fistan.
Nedim gibi bir gun birileri de benim derimi yuzer. Ben tanri degilim ama. Gorsem de zaten tanimam.
Tanri dedigin bir sanri degildir de nedir cigerim?
BADUMM TSSS
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Is nasil olsun iste. Gerginlikler su yuzune cikiyor. Hakikaten anliyorsun ki aslinda teknik problemler falan yalan yani; bir sirketi vezir ya da rezil eden kesinlikle sosyal dinamikler.
Tabi zor konular bunlar. Mulakat esnasinda (iyi ki de interview demedik ha, mulakat derken kendimi yer sofrasinda agzinin kenarindan koyun etinin yagi akarcasina Arap hissettim) o sirketin genel kulturune ve yapisina nasil uyacagini belirlemek birinin imkansiz denebilir. Genel olarak her sey havada derede iste.
And this is where the track record comes in. Really though, trust nothing else but track record. Not that other things cannot be trustworthy but of all things, the track record is probably the most reliable and has the best signal to noise ratio.
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That applies to lots of things. I remember when I kinda sorta needed counseling after a certain event. What I had been told was that I should have seen the red flags all along and had acted on it.
It's kind of counter-intuitive, to me at least, but when I was dealing with that, I didn't need to just hear things would be OK but also that I had made a mistake. I needed to know that there was something wrong with what I did.
This is hard to stomach for most people but if you think about it, in such cases where you are in a really shitty position, you'd much rather find the guilt in you. Of course with that comes being able to blame yourself but also the slight possibility of admitting the mistake and doing something about it.
In other words, if shit went down and you had no way of avoiding it, that's not really consoling. But if you could see how it was also slightly your fault, then you can avoid it the next time. For me at least, being able to say "Fuck, I'm retarded" is much better than saying "Fuck! There's nothing I could have done!". To each, his own.
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Conner'in kiz bulma konusundaki ucu asiriliga kacan tutkusunu heyecanla takip ediyorum ben de.
Bizden gecti herhalde mirim bu tip seyler.
Carolina and co buraya gelince heyecan yapti tabi sevgili roommate. Ilgincti tabi.
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Kisa sacli ve karizmatik kiz kadar seksi bir sey olabilir mi diye sormayin.
Olamaz.
