26 Eylül 2010, Pazar
saat: 17:19
"I was very badly prepared for Williams College, both socially and intellectually. In fact, I was convinced I did not belong there and that I was going to flunk out. The first day I arrived at Williams there were freshmen talking about authors and poets whom I'd never heard of, let alone formed an opinion about. I thought, 'I don't know anything' and called my mother and said 'You know I'll do my best, mom, but I'll probably be home before Christmas because I don't think I'm going to make it here.' Because of my self-doubt, I worked really hard at Williams."
This anecdote about Scott's adaptation points to a pattern I recognize: I always arrive at a place thinking I don't belong and that I have to prove to these people, and to myself, that I am good enough to be there. So, for the first year or two, I am a good little girl, who thinks "I have to succeed on their terms so that I'm accepted."
God knows how I'm gonna behave as soon as I feel secure!
