12 Ekim 2010, Salı
saat: 05:42
i don't know why i am having so much trouble keeping it together, or maybe it's not me, everything just seems so intent on falling apart.
the undergrad class is kicking my ass. there was a reason i avoided it during my undergrad, assholes, and it is kinda useless since we already did the lectures in the grad course now. why would i ever want to know about inverted repeats and ethyl methanesulfonate and förster resonance energy transfer or some other similarly lovely bullshit? it's not just the content either. i am somehow perpetually late for class, everyone seems to be there ten minutes early all the time. i do the wrong homework (and it is kindly pointed out to me that i am the only one to do so.) today i missed the review session i definitely intended on going, that i desperately needed to because it was not in the room that we have the class in. the room number was apparently indicated in the syllabus (but why, the classroom was perfectly empty!), and again, it was kindly pointed out to me that 'it was well attended.' although i saw three other people aimlessly wondering around the building that we have the class in, so i take comfort in the fact that this time at least i wasn't the only one.
bad start? too much too soon? incompatibility? character flaw? just a bad couple of months?
really though, what the heck is up?
