18 Mayıs 2025, Pazar
saat: 12:05
Yes so days are passing in my comfort zone , I have difficulty to adjust.I feel liike I am coming out from a stressfull situation then to a relaxed space I feel to do nothing. I need to do so much and that stresses me a lot. I want to be grounded and not forced to do anything. That s why sometimes I want not to get out of bed. I was in a camp yesterday night and the day before met a friend westarted dating I dont know what I am doing dont feel I am ready because I am still vulnerable but he asked me and I said I was ready for a relationship. My first impression of him was not positive because I felt he was russing and I pushed him to stay in the friends zone he became a good friend the last 4 months while I was travelling and when I returned to my ex he said it was toxic and cut the connection now some of my friends told he looked and sounded clever and good and now ı m under their effect and went to him but I dont think it s that great but dont want to be judgemental . we will see .... At the camp another ex from 4 years back he is sooo dump sooo stupid and makes sooo sexist jokes... Aanyway I put him to his place that he is not someone for me. So now I have to get back to myself really to my ground I m sick and getting more pounds day by day I need to get rid of 5 kg. It s making me too big and my clothes doesnt fit... My wish for me and this week is to come back to my center. I am at my home my freedom zone and I need my emotions to stabilize and feel good again....
